Secret Girls

I sit here at this coffee shop imagining myself with a gun. I picture how I will kill and maim and distroy and bleed every person in here. I am not afraid of my visions, as some people are. I embrace them. I yern for violence.

I am not violent towards everyone. No. In fact I hold true to my friends. I will protect them until the end.

I also talk the talk but have yet to walk the walk. I have never harmed any person physicaly. I have never even thrown a punch. This surprises me because my whole childhood was full of people picking on me. I was the kid who's hat you would steal or pencil you would break or books you would hide. I was the butt of your jokes and the punchline to your life. And now I want to kill youy. Not because of the things you have done but the persons you've become.

You fit the mold they made. Society. Normality. I will watch you die.

I will throw the punch. I will defend my right to be what I want. How I want. I will not flinch as you twitch into death.

And there are much more like me. We will find one another and build a strong trust between us. We will be stronger than any wall your society has built. We will triumph.

For we are Secret Girls. We are the start of the end. And we can not wait to watch you die.

I Hate Erik Estrada's Guts

First of all, I wanted to let you know that I have written a letter to T.V. Guide Magazine wishing to nominate and cast a vote for "In The Heat Of The Night" actress, Anne-Marie Johnson, as "The Most Beautiful Woman On Television."

Also, Alan Autry and Howard Rollins both look adorable in showercaps. They really become them and both actors wear them very well.

But, I have only one gripe and pet peeve about the show that I want stopped stat. I'm furious over it.

Every week, I hate to see the entire cast tear David Hart down in his character role constantly throughout the whole show, whether it be a series or a movie, by making him look like a silly, stupid, idiotic fool, instead of treating this human being with feelings and deeply beloved Son Of God kindly and with the total respect he deserves. It hurts me.

As fellow human beings, may I please remind you and the rest of the cast and crew that none of them are flawlessly perfect either? That kind of human being doesn't exist in this mortal earth life -- never did and never will.

History repeats itself doesn't it? This letter also applies to the cruel and abusive treatment you all gave actor Paul Linke while he was co- starring on Chips in the exact same way. I for one am tired of it in both cases.

And furthermore, I absolutely hate Erik Estrada's guts and always have because he's always been so conceited and swelled- headed, plus an extremely selfish, self- centered, and self- righteous old bully and scrooge. Just like all the rest of us, doesn't he know he's not perfect either?

He also strikes me as a stuck- up snob, and I have absolutely no respect for that creep and jerk. I never could stand him. It's time to give him a dose of his own medicine, and see how he likes it.

I'm not able to take both shows' constant mistreatment of Mr. Hart and Mr. Linke lightly, even if it doesn't bother them, because I've been a constant victim of cruel, verbal abuse all of my life too. Especially at school, but not by family members. But I've also been abused the same way by two former bosses right in a row, and it really hurts.

I'm not physically beautiful, but just like Mr. Hart and Mr. Linke, that doesn't stop me from being a human being with feelings or a very depply beloved child of God either.

Since when do physically beautiful people have the right to treat the rest of us like dirt, crap, scum, garbage and trash, etc? We're all God's children no matter what we look like.

My love for them is only platonic, but I do care for them very much, but Mr. Hart and Mr. Linke are not ugly or homely. And they do have brains.

Will you please forward this letter to the Covington, Georgia studio and tell the cast and crew there about it, but tell the former cast of "Chips" first? Because I don't have the Covington Studio address.

Thank you for your time.